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Survivor Shy - A Birthday Song Never Sung by Mattatatta Survivor Shy - A Birthday Song Never Sung by Mattatatta
Second illustration for upcoming chapter, and is probably one of the darkest (theme-wise) I've drawn in the series. While I've drawn things like Fluttershy's nightmares and bleak landscapes in Survivor Shy, none of those match up to the undertones I've aimed for here.

This is a little colt's surprise birthday party that never happened.

It's funny really, ever since I set my boundaries on what kind of story I want to tell in this series, I've wanted to draw something that could be considered disturbing without gore or other staples of cheap horror. After nearly one and a half years, I've done something I believe achieves that.

Links:
Survivor Shy Gallery: mattatatta.deviantart.com/gall…
Survivor Shy on FimFiction: www.fimfiction.net/story/43363…
My Tumblr: mattatatta.tumblr.com

Oh and yes; that is a hamster on the table. I call him Bubble.
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mercenario1945 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2015
context?
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is an illustration from a fic I last worked on over a year - nearly two years - ago (still incomplete). This picture appeared in the last published chapter.

The premise of the story is that Fluttershy is the only known pony left in existence after a sudden and devastating magical blast swept across Equestria and beyond. While trying to cope with her losses and find a way to survive, she frequently gets reminders of the different ponies that disappeared. In this image, Fluttershy enters a house and discovers a surprise birthday had been set up for a young pony, but had never taken place.

She kinda loses herself in the hours after this. Unfortunately, I left the last chapter on a cliffhanger and proceeded to get dragged away by life.
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AlicornHybrid88 Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2014
Since I don't have a FIMfiction account I'll put this here...
Have read and re-read this story, and the scene with Bubble in particular about a dozen times now...still want to cry when I do. Also, still want to somehow make my way to Equestria so I can help Bubble. I'd adopt him and care for him and he'd never be lonely again...so wish Fluttershy had found a way to sneak him into her quest...poor Flutters, all alone and hurting...
Also, now I wish I had sowing talents so I can make my own plushie Survivor Shy and Bubble and keep them together forever. And snuggle with them at night...take the nightmares away...excuse me :cries:
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I have plans for Bubble, but I've been largely occupied in the past year to the point that I've had to put the fic on hiatus. I won't say when I'll be back on the fic, but I will say I have every intention of continuing the story.
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AlicornHybrid88 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2014
Just so long as it'll get done...I'm not gonna complain. Much. Looking forward to the effects spoken of in the snippet attached the the pic with Flutters and the Elements though, and please give that poor adorable hamster a happy ending? Please? 
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Don't worry about Bubble, I'm not keen on killing things off - especially not small creatures.
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AlicornHybrid88 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2014
I meant more about his current status as alone and sad but I'll take the not killing thing too...
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heh, most people usually worry about characters dying - like it is the worst possible thing to happen to them.
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AlicornHybrid88 Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2014
As much as I hate good characters dying...death is final. I hate more that characters are sad or lonely or whatever...becuase I want to just go into the story and make it all better. That Bubble is ALSO an adorable little hamster...
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Pretty much why I don't consider death to be the worst thing: it is final and it ends everything the character feels and goes through (unless we start playing with the rules of death and the afterlife, but that just muddies the water in this case).
Of course, it can cut both ways when a character dies. A character that has gone through a lot of stuggles and has reached a point where they are at greater peace with themselves can die suddenly yet have readers feel that they had a good run. On the other hoof, a character that dies before they can even take a step into the story is either a redshirt character that nobody is meant to care about, or is a tragic character that dies before they could earn their peace, or - at worst - is a character whose development seems to have been all for nought.

Though I have no intentions of writing death scenes, I have looked into them just to understand what can be done with them, and what could go wrong if it's written poorly.
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Wait0wat Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014
I really like those old children, special moments like this one, it hit you a little more than seeing what made it so abandoned.
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Grey-Mane Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014   Digital Artist
This is one of my favorite images from the story. It is sad.
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It is one of my favourites too, because it was so successful at evoking emotion in those who viewed it. It was the first time I managed to really pull it off
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BlackWidower Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Professional Writer
I don't think it's disturbing, so much as sad.
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Greenhatman Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2013
The darkest?  Considering what's come so far, that'll be something to see!
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Patrikov909 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:'(
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Kimberly-AJ-04-02 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Student General Artist
Maybe it was a birthday party that Pinkie Pie had organized.
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TheAwesomeKk Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2013

Pinkie Pie, huh...? -trembles- Cupcakes, anyone?

 

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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
In the context of the chapter this is for, it was a surprise birthday party that had been set up the night before a little pony's birthday. The party never took place.

The hamster was the family's pet, and it has been waiting for the family to come home. In the meantime, it has been eating the cake.

Even without the context, the image still tells a dark tale
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MasterVule Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I don't know why but I find this very disturbing... like something is wrong.. but I don't know why.. amazing pic.. but creepy as hell! :iconscaredplz:
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That's exactly what I wanted to achieve! I didn't want in-your-face horror, I wanted the horror to be lurking and waiting for when people make the realisation.
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MasterVule Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well you did it =P
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EfernoTheDragon Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh man.
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh stallion...
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EfernoTheDragon Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2013  Student General Artist
Alright then, oh stallion
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Enmar123 Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2013
just looking at this pic makes me...
so very sad...
:<
i think imma start reading survivor-shy...

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zaiali Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013
GAH! OH THE FEELS! 
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
If you haven't already, you should read the the chapter its from - it's much more intense with writing
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zaiali Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
*whispers* I know, I read them all, just no longer have time to comment! 
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconspikenoplz:
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zaiali Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013
Fine, I'll try to give some input. 
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
If you can't I won't be offended. I can't force you
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DarthWill3 Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh no...
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Kinda disturbing, eh?
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DarthWill3 Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Tragic.
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Cyberdonian Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013
wow, this is brilliant, i've been meaning to put Survivor Shy on my read-list for a while now.

Also i just noticed that her eyes have like a heart-monitor thing going on, metaphor for something or just coincidence?
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
SAJDHFGNCAGSMUCG YES! SOMEONE NOTICED!

It's a loose representation of her vitality and mood. I started drawing it in because I was a little fascinated by how people draw hearts and butterflies in place of highlights in eyes, but I didn't want to do something like that in Survivor Shy because it would be too distracting. So what I did was replace the usual circular highlights with something else that would help make my art feel more like my own. I settled on the heartbeat lines because they are not too distracting from the rest of the expression, and because they can change very easily to match not only the mood of a piece, but the mood of the character. I plan to explore the idea in future pieces, ranging from excited or frightened to sleepy or listless. I will not deny I want to draw a 'flatline' to enhance a depressed or soulless look - which some artists depict by removing or reducing the presence of highlights in eyes.
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CelestialRainicorn Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautifully well drawn.

Good job!
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks!
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YuvalB111 Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
poor Flutters! having a birthday party alone, all by yourself... It hurts, its like thinking you don't have friends:<
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well gee, now that you put it that way...
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YuvalB111 Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
well, don't you think it hurts?
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Sabera55 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2014
Its not her birthday...
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Kenshi-Wolf Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2013
ow..... my feels
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope that won't leave a nasty scar
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Kenshi-Wolf Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013
Nah, i don't scar easy, just ask my hand that got a drill through it.
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Are you 25% Jesus? (Braces for impact)
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Kenshi-Wolf Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013
...... pfffffffffffffftt HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! No.
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Mattatatta Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh well
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Kenshi-Wolf Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2013
Even if i was jesus noone would believe me
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